i have been friends with someone for 8 months... we saw each other 4 times a week and would go out till 3 or 4 in the morning nearly each time...  we experienced a lot together..  and now she abandoned me.... 

we did xtc and slept at a friends place...  she says she saw me touch myself and got so scared and dissapointed with me...  now she doesnt want to do anything with me.. . thing is...  i didnt do it...  she says i planned doing this which is just plain stupid!

yesterday she send a text message saying she misses me...  but she still does not want contact...  today all hell broke loose and she just tore me apart with personal attacks...  im sick of this...  so for the first time i spoke back...  fucked up thing is...  i still want her back into my live... why do i want someone back that lies hurts me and discards me like im trash?  i took her too aguilera..  threw an expensive birthday party for her and many more things... and this is how she reacts? 

live is fucked up....  i wish i could prove nothing happend but of course i cant...  wouldnt matter anyways but at least i would know she knew the truth and wouldnt call me a liar.....

fuck this.....